...But what if your heart is in different places?
Having just returned from my first trip back to the UK after 140 days in Spain, I have found myself faced with an internal conflict. I had a wonderful, jam packed week, full of my favourite people in the world, but even though I enjoyed myself immensely, I wasn't sad to leave, and actually found myself saying "I'm going home" as I was returning to Spain. This surprised me, and as I flopped on my bed, relieved after my long journey back to Salamanca, I started thinking about what home means to me. After much deliberation, I have decided that it is ok to call more than one place, home. This is a strange idea to me, and I almost feel guilty somehow, but I have several branches of my life which make me happy, and I should be celebrating this fact.
1. Oxford
I haven't written about him much, it hasn't really felt appropriate, but after more than four years of leaving a piece of my heart there on a regular basis, Paul makes Oxford one of my homes. The city now feels so familiar and is so full of wonderful memories that it has become very important to me. It is looking very likely that I will be spending a lot more time there in the near future, and this is a comforting thought. I shouldn't feel guilty about wanting to live in a beautiful city with the boy I love, and I like the path that the next part of my life is taking.
2. Durham
As I walked up the Bailey the other day, doing the usual, frustrating "why-are-tourists-so-slow" dance among the crowds, I found myself smiling - it felt like I had never been away, and I was very glad to be back. The town aside, I was obviously more pleased to see my friends. I knew I had been missing being back in Durham with them, but it wasn't until the X1 pulled into the station that I realised just how much. They gave up their beds, their rooms, their toiletries, lots of their money, as well as time that they would usually spend doing work just to spend time with me on my whirlwind weekend. The last two years with them have been amazing, and it took this week to realise just how lucky I am to love my uni city, and have so many beautiful friends. Thank you all :)
3. Salamanca
My most recent home, my love for this city has grown exponentially throughout my stay. I fell asleep on the bus home from the airport, and woke up to see the illuminated cathedral in front of me, getting closer as the bus made its approach. It would be very naive of me to think I know the city inside out; I discover new things (read: bars and cafés) everyday, but there is something very special about leaving my city centre flat and walking through the magnificent Plaza Mayor every morning, nonchalantly photo-bombing keen American tourists. I have met some people who I hope will be life long friends, and I have been lucky with my housemates, who have helped to make the flat feel like home. I am already dreading leaving in a few weeks, and as I have said in a previous post, I am certain I will return.
4. Home
Saving the best till last, Nunthorpe will always be home. I loved being back at my house, not having to worry about anything at all - I didn't have to wear a hat, scarf and three pairs of socks to bed, nor struggle home with bags of groceries before preparing an omelette for one. On the contrary, I spent two lovely evenings watching primetime TV, eating yummy food and putting the world to rights with my parents. I realise its been hard for them to see me gradually fly the nest, but at least they can take comfort in the fact that where they are will always be my home, and that they have taught me well enough how to be a reasonable human being, so I can take perfectly good care of myself when I'm "off gallivanting".
I am at a confusing time of my life, perhaps, but I can take advantage of this in my ability to "go home" to more than one place.











